I wanted to thank you for helping me yesterday. I must say by the end of the evening I was only feeling “somewhat” grateful. The other part was pretty pissed off at you for being such a “heartless bastard”. After paying all that
money and using all that time, I felt really rotten. Not Fair! After a fairly lousy sleep, I did a collapse this morning. I realized that that the”chip” I have been carrying all these years was the need to inflate myself for my
intelligence. So in every group setting I have been looking for status. No wonder I feel lonely and isolated! As you are well aware, there are a lot of smart people out there! I have isolated myself. I have had what I wanted all along. I now feel more love for my “stupid self”. I don’t need to hide it. My stupidity will be my teacher and help me grow my spiritual self and more fully connect with others.
Sharon – I copied this to you. You were my support and Chris was my challenge. It has been a very hard but needed lesson. Oh by the way, I had a terrible case of diarreha this morning.
Could there be a connection?